Sav'ant Amida's Journal

Passing the Hours
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II : Introspection

I believe myself to be Masiddha, an elevated one, I believe myself to be Maitreya, a future coming, yet I am unable to defend myself? My body is weak, my mind is strong, yet those who possess what I lack can so easily end my life. A common street thug could kill me, and end all I have worked for or could ever work for, This weighs on my mind every morning and every night. I have decided to begin training my athleticism, I have started with going on runs in the morning and have even began to workout a little. I will not allow my unarmedness to hinder the development of my strength, My weakness will not serve to hamper what strength I can foster.

I held a prayer for Aurora on the week's end, though it was on my own I believe that it'll help her pass on into her next life. I knew not the Woman personally but I will honor her sacrafice and her memory, I feel a respect towards her and her martyrdom. I feel that this world that I have stepped into is full of danger, yet I feel a strange allure to continute trekking it. Did the monks of the mountain feel this same feeling? Did my brothers in faith so many centuries ago feel the same way as we charged into battle against those warriors of the state? It has always been my nature to face danger yet with a body as weak as this one how can I?

I must find a way to fight back against those that would oppress and do harm to myself and those I call an ally or compatriot, how else am I to survive in this world? 

🔞 Come on down!
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IV : Dukkha-Dukkha

Dukkha means pain, it is suffering, it is stress, it is anguish. In three parts it is the Suffering of Suffering, the Suffering of Change, and the Suffering of Existance, and there are four truths that are associated with this suffering. There is the Truth of Suffering, Truth of the Cause, Truth of the End, and Truth of the Path that leads away from Suffering. These are important concepts to recognize as one's belief-system of each determines the path they take in life.

At the moment I am experiencing the first of the three, Psyhical suffering, every waking moment I am in agony as my wounds heal. My robes have been replaced and prayer beads have been placed amongst my ankles, doubled up on my wrist, and my necklace has been strewn around my neck, we believe that it will accelerate the healing process. I have come to understand Pain in it's purest of forms yet in my lives past I have come to understand Dukkha in all of it's forms.

I have come to realize that it is not merely enough to act in self-defense, especially for one such as myself that has no ability to do so psyhically, and instead I must put myself towards learning the ability to help others realize Dukkha as well. This pain that I feel, I should teach others to feel it as well. An ability to administer this pain and this suffering towards those that truly deserve it, rather than those who don't, is most needed.

The body holds 7 Chakra Points, each of these points resides and corresponds to a set of organs or vitals within the body, perhaps an attack on one's spirit would be able to shut these down? I am unsure about whether or not it would be painless but I must make sure to conceal it, it mustn't look like direct action from myself.

I have come to understand the purpose of the world I have entered, I feel that this ability of mine has come to fruitition and that I may really be capable of it, yet I must find something to test it on soon. 

First thing though, I must recover. 

The Contract: LARP
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VI : Karma

My journey into the realm of martial combat has led to the development of a new revelation: I am but a naked unarmoured soul fighting against beings that could easily take my life in one blow: and in addition the revelation that if I were to go down: its likely that so to will my allies. If I am to be a lifeline, I must make absolute sure that I survive whereas most people wouldn't, I cannot support or help anyone if I am dead. If I am to die from a stray bullet, or a brutal strike from some bastard sword, the world will be lost and I will yet again wait for reincarnation: a set back I would most like to avoid.

Through deep meditation, I have now manifested a new ability of faith: Karma, it seems that the world itself and those higher powers at be now passively abjure me from harm. I've tested it briefly with local kids and rocks, and it does quite work, and it isn't obivous.

I have come to understand the importance of martial combat in this world, there are some who will not listen to reason and there are some who cannot be enlightened of greater truths: these are the people who will never fold to peace and will face it with violence instead. These people are the ones who I must arm myself against, and these people are the ones I must antagonize and arm my brothers in faith against, I must be careful as not to turn to Violence as a first resort against my fellow man but I must also understand the importance of preserving my own life: for the future.

It appears that my limp has not yet recovered yet, perhaps in the future I could develop a prayer or mantra to deal with that.

The Red Menace
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IIIV : New York

Comrade Rapheal and I have been visiting New York, hes been helping me grow accustomed to life in the States and has been helping me get my foot in the door: I am very gracious for his help. I respect this man a great deal as he is not only incredibly capable but he is incredibly reliable in many fields, I suspect that we will continute working together for a long while.

During the trip Rapheal has introduced me to modern technology though I am still incapable of driving due to my condition, I am now more aware of the world we live in such as the internet and certain facets of life and I have decided to open a Twitter account amongst other things and I have learned that I can actaully read and listen to audiobooks of Sutras and Theory online rather than purchase them psyhically: a lifesaver as I lack certain material possessions such as money.

I have no desire to obtain money as anything other than a means to an end however, I only purchase what I need: enough to get around the city and take care of myself. I have been with Rapheal for a huge majority of the trip as I am relying on his money in order to survive out here at the moment, hes paid for the appartment and hes paid for most everything else: I feel that he is attempting to warm me up to something? Though I am more than happy to accept whatever invitation this man may extend to me. 

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X : Checkup In New York

I messaged the Doctor off my phone to come see me, told him that I'd give him a favor if he fixed my leg: he agreed. He arrived later and began to talk about something about a Movie being approved for Chinese audiences? I like Movies, so I agreed. I was talking to Doctor about what happened in the recent mission and he seemed pretty sympathethic to the loss, I'll be staying in contact with Doctor for a while.

I managed to clear up the hostilitys with the Monastery over Twitter, we've agreed to mostly respect eachother's beliefs and to just let eachother live. I've been going around the city more but its getting to be quite annoying that I can't drive, I've gotten used to the looks at this point: but it won't stop me from wearing my robes around: im proud of my faith. Perhaps I should find out a way to get an arm back, maybe a prosthesis or even a stick or something, I don't have any money and I don't want to keep begging Rapheal to fund my endeavors. 

The Doctor, Don, showed for the followup shot after a week, and soon enough I was walking normally again. He'll give me a call when he needs me to help in production of his "Movie", something about Comrade Fonzie "Fratricide" Buck, I can't say im not looking forward to it though. I'll be seeing more of the Doctor in the years to come, probably. I have nothing but disdain for the rich but this one's useful. 

Mushroom Hunt
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