This is gonna be hard to write, considering......... he passed...... away. ill try and write this as coherently as possible, as this is gonna bring up some bad memories of my past self. so i was approched by the SCP foundation to investigate a village out in the netherlands. we have Gov tsu wang again, Benard Tox, a great chemist, wish i could of talked with him more about chemical results. Simon came to help again, which was nice, and there was a sniper who saved my life from some bone pillar spike things from those........ monstrosities. And then..... there's Alexis. he probably never will know this, but he changed me, for the better. back when i ran...... for once, i felt guilt, i hesitated to use gas to destroy my problems, which was a defininite start, Alexis showed me that even in dire circumstances, what was right, while maybe not the best idea for your own life, maybe might save someone else's life........ trying to write this down is like trying to write down this contract is like trying to write down my own past. its not easy, but i have to do this. there were multiple monstrosities that attacked us when Alexis tried to save a baby from one of them...... we barely survived, and after doing some tests, i realized that nothing i had could kill the damn monsters. it was very much scary to me because for once, i felt like i might die, and there was nothing i could do to stop it...... so i ran.... ran far away, somehow back to my home, and i cried and i bashed myself for at least trying not to help Alexis afterwards. I may not be a good person, but ill at least try to become one. hell, it may be impossible, but Alexis gave me hope, and i won't let him die in vain.................

so today, a fucking knight somehow did chemistry better than me, AND WE BOTH FAILED. how does that happen, like, percival is a nice guy and all, BUT HIS STUPID AS SOMEHOW BEAT ME WITH 6 INTENSIVE YEARS OF STUDY. im gonna need a break after this. so i had to go to a school with Percival and be a student for the whole day, making sure that i didn't go out of the school. so we went to chemistry, where we worked with the periodic table, and im gonna try and recite all the element names, so here goes. nihonium, moscovium, tennessine, oganesson, hydrogen, helium, lithium, beryllium, Boron, carbon, nitrogen, oxygen, fluroine, neon, sodium, magnesium, aluminum, silicon, phosphorus, Sulfur, Chlorine, argon, potassium, Calcium, Scandium, Titanium, Vanadium, Chromium, Manganese, Iron, Cobalt, Nickel, Copper, Zinc, Gallium, Germanium, arsenic, selenium, bromine, Krypton(run superman), Rubium, strontium, yttrium, Zirconium, Niobium, Molybdenum, Technetium, Ruthium, Rhodium, palladium, silver, cadmium, indium, tin, antimony, Tellurium, Iodine, Xenon, caesium, barium, lanthanum, Cerium, Praseodymium, neodymium, promethium, samarium, europium, Gadolinium, Terbium, Dysprosium, holmium, erbium, thuliim, ytterbium, Lutetium, hafnium, tantalum, tungsten, rhennium, osmium, iridium, platinum, gold, mercury thallium, lead, bismuth, polonium, astatine, Radon, francium, radium, actium, thorium, protactinium, uranium, curium, americium, berkelium, californium, einsteinium, fermium, mendelevium, nobelium, lawrencium, ruthfordium, dubnium, seaborgium, and thats all i can remember

well, i got pretty far there, i got most of the elements, take that percival, try doing that with your dark age brain you limbed worm. i beat you in dodgeball, ill beat you in chemistry, you arern't better than me, YOU GOT THAT....

after getting my trauma healed, i realize that losing to someone from the dark ages probably shattered my ego, that was embarrising, hopefully i can apologze to the knight one day, if i ever get the chance. damn, this game while relativily easy, just messed with my mind so much after chemistry class. at least i got to poison a t rex.

logbook entry 4264- well, this was my 10th game, and well, it was interesting to say the least, we had to assiasinate a corrupt politican who was manipulating the trade center or something, and while i was a little concerned about how well it was planned out, a little too well, it suprusingly went off without a hitch. Simon, who came from the circus game, was pretty helpful with detecting things, making sure that we weren't gonna run into any traps, and saw the tunnel buttons, which where for lights, obivious, i know, and cleanse, which i was interested in. i made sure no one was inside before we pressed it, I let Chamael press it, and then everything in the tunnel was burned clean, as if it were recently cleaned. turns out this steampunk world is more advanced then i thought, though they do have flying ships powered only by steam. so while going through the tunnels, i........ found what seemed to be a winged snake, which turned out to have a species name that i can't pronounce, somehow. Chameal then pulled out a book, which has some writing on it about the snake, and he was deeply affected by it. likely something to due with the power he used, but we kept moving on to the secret entrance to the living quarters of our target. Simon opend it, and after nearly giving off our positionsby accident, i decided to use my targeted sleep grenade, and he fell asleep FAST. after draging him out far enough into the tunnel, Simon pulled out his gun, Chameal became a angel of death, and the target was dead 10 times over, with confirmation from the ghost girl that came with us. Chameal brought back the head as proof, we got our payment, and now here i am, now a Seasoned Contractor, walking back home. you know, i wonder what Alexis has been up too since the last time i saw him......

today, i learned that life, is unfair

Logbook entry 4269        Yesterday was the first day of Firehazard being open, it went well, except for Simon getting a dart in his shoulder, and Tsu being so drunk that Simon had to use his gun to force off the drunk governor(let’s hope he’s not like that on the job) Kody asked about therapy, finally, after........ Alexis dying, he’s definitely not the same, being more drawn back from Ed and I, sometimes outright ignoring me(though sometimes it was deserved, like when I asked for some vinegar to drink), so I’m glad he’s at least getting some help for Alexis dying, maybe I could even figure out how he died. There was also a nice woman named Mary who for some reason had some beef with Jeremy over getting a hit placed on her(might be worth looking into in case it was for good reason) but after a argument, Mary is actually gonna try to get built a med bat here, and I’ll supply the medical tools and resources. Then there was Cylia, who while acted a little strange at first, after getting to know her, it seems that her planet was torn apart by war, and she was hunted for whatever she was made out of, so I assume her body is not on the periodic table, but she’s a nice person, and while she’s definitely a little unsettling to look at in the eyes, she’s a nice person, I even taught her darts. im working on a few things for the future, to ensure that I'll always have enough power to tackle what ever comes from the Contracts. first things first, i need to ensure my arm doesn't break again, but that was easier said than done. the arm is already reiniforced enough to where adding aything stronger would weigh me down. i looked towards my scaled field to see if that would help with what i was doing. nada, didn't work, not even improved armor, it seems i need some more practice with it. on the other hand, i discover a way to make my arm....... incorpreal. after some experiments, my arm now can phase through walls, and the likely hood of it being broken is now down to not likely ever gonna happen. i also managed to make a sort of concussion bomb, and its definitly effective. and im doing something i should of done long ago, my gas has lagged behind everything else, that needs to end soon.