I still wonder why they keep trying to pinpoint me as supernatural. Even though I am not. Well I can't say much, except the nightmare continues. I hope next quest will not be overseas again. Feels like business trip now.
Maybe I should stay at home for next contract. I mean I could, but what dream it would be? Boring.

Yeah, no. I might only live once, but that means I got to use the time the best I can. Another thing is: I lost my sword. Again. And now there is no con to go. Well as I already mentioned: The nightmare continues. At home fortunately nothing changed. Long nights, playing games. But I didn't felt it. Like I knew it was not real. Like I knew that it was real. Sometimes... It creates worlds that have no summer, and it shivers under a black sun, and it takes its sad creation for reality.

I could focus on is to calm myself when under pressure. Or rather how to not get under pressure. Those quests feel like being under pressure though. So I'd rather work on being under pressure then. That is easier said than done, trust me.

Well, this is not a game, where you can just quick load to before you made a bad decision. Now I have to deal with it.  Life is on Ironman mode.

...And the game was over and the player woke up from the dream. And the player began a new dream...

When I got home I found out Ricter wrote me. It took me good 10 minutes before it clicked in. That was the guy on truck stop quest. I chatted back. It turned out that he just wanted to help me with my one eye problem and also has my sword on him. WOOOO! It's not lost!

He even agreed to fly into Europe. I got to preparation, finding closest events. Mentally preparing to walk in town all day. For a moment I was thinking about taking him on Spaziergang, but I can't do that to someone who just came here. I finally decided to take him to my favourite internet-café. There they had a special event from time to time. During that you could win yourself a part of your order for free. If you are able to defeat the 'Spielmaster' EZ

With that I looked up and booked a table. The day got closer and I got to get to work. I promised to give Ricter my eye. The crystal one. I got to working on the second copy. While fidgeting with wires to hold yet another crystal I got an idea. I borrowed father's toolbox and began to make the second circlet better fitting. It looked great. So great I decided to give out my old one and keep the new one. Should've give it to him. Seems a bit stronger

The day came and I waited trough a too much people to for Ricter to arrive. First  I got my sword back. I showed him around and showed my skills in a café. When we got home the eye exchange begun. It was painful, horrible. And a kinda disgusting. He spit into my eye!
When he finished he looked exhausted and I was too. I even didn't play anything

Next day I drove him to airport. On my way back I found a pack of dollar bills. I wrote him about it and his response? "Yeah, it's ok." That guy is awesome

With my sword back I finally got back to training. In addition I asked sensei on hand to hand combat and he agreed on bringing me to taijutsu training too. Letsgo!
From that point on I am aware of very much every single muscle in my body. It's sore, but I know I must endure pain as pain is just a state of mind that warns us about protentional damage. I am aware of that that damage. There is no need of pain now. Pain wards injury. I am aware. There is no need of pain.

As I spend less time on computer I feel more power and strength in me. Both physically and mentally. Something's changed. For better. I also bought myself a lockpicks. Not that I need them but I can train precision not only on keyboard now. Quite a change.

Interesting situation was when parents came for a 'routine house check' mother noticed I have booth eyes functioning again. Long story and questionnaire later I got made new glasses with no dioptres on left eye. I look normal again. Except for a long scar across the face. I didn't let that to be healed. I wanted to have a reminder on my first quest ever. Once upon a time, there was a player.

I think I am ready for my next quest. 
...And the game was over and the player woke up from the dream. And the player began a new dream...

It took a week before my brain sorted all out. And at that day my nightmare began. Every time I close my eyes and see nothing I can feel the blood dripping down my face. I couldn't sleep for quite some days before my appointment came and mein Psychiater helped me to at least close my eyes in fully lit room. They are cursed to float forever, deep in the swirling blackness, far beyond the light's reach.

Another thing I found out I really don't like going to doctors. Even the psych one got me a harsh breathing. At least no needle was involved.

Funny thing is even with my condition I rarely slept during night and i had lights on while playing anyways so it made no real dent into my housing expanses. So 50k is mine to use... maybe some fond. or just new collector's edition figure set.

As for my life gamification questline goes... I guess my next quest will be soon™ Which take quite a while.

Now I had to focus on something I could change. And get used to my new nightmarish life. And craft my new gift.

With that in mind I fully embraced more training. And built in something that would help me talk less and think more.

...And the game was over and the player woke up from the dream. And the player began a new dream...

After what I have seen I decided I need not to get there. I rabbled trough my trinkets and finally found What I was looking for. A Rose quartz.

After few failed attempts to meditate with it. I tried to change functionality a bit. Using my dad's tools I was able to create lens like shape with incisions to reflect what I wanted to do. Runes.

Berkana, the rune of birth, algiz, rune of protection, and gebo, rune of gift. Together they should create good mindscape for meditation. BGZ. funny to pronounce.

After one broken pedant I tried different approach. Make it a broch. And it worked like a charm. With that I put the lens to my inner breast pocket and sat down. I closed my eyes and I entered my own mind. It was like looking trough my eyes as they are not mine. I can feel everything, but I am not there. Body frozen in time levitating few centimetres above the ground. Then I woke up. It worked!

With that I found my new way of resting. I felt refreshed as much as you are after long undisturbed sleep. It was fine feeling for once.

My next quest is near. And I am ready.

...And the game was over and the player woke up from the dream. And the player began a new dream...