I'm tired. When I'm awake, my energy levels have seemed to skyrocket. At my last doctor's appointment they said that my blood pressure is abnormally high, and my resting heart rate is nowhere near last we checked. That being said, they claimed I was perfectly healthy. I feel powerful. When I dropped a weight on my foot while working out the other day, I felt nothing. The same doctor claimed I had fractured a toe. So I went home and experimented... my body seems to be stronger. Is this the supernatural reward from the mysterious "benefactors" at the agency?

I'm so tired. I wake up screaming at night sometimes... thinking of my daughter, of my ex, or ma. They die in such horrible ways. I can't stop thinking about it right after I wake up and right before I fall asleep and all throughout the night.

I did another job to make some money. I wrote about it in the journal. Took out a few targets. We were in and out within the hour.

I'm tired.

I went to see her yesterday. It was a joy as always. She told me that her new favorite animal is a sloth, so I guess I'll have to return the unicorn plush I bought for part of her birthday present next month. I took her out to the movies and got her her favorite meal at Howie's. Man, I miss her so much already. And with these damn dreams, I feel like I'm losing myself just as much as I miss my family. I need to hold it together for her. I need to show her I'm ok.