I must find answers! I need to find a cure for this damn disease! After doing a bunch of searches I found an old guild that specializes in finding cures for illnesses and injury. So I tracked them down and found a run down facility on the outskirts of the player hub. I got to meet their leader, Aegis who is a bit of a loose cannon and gets banned in a lot of forums. Felix, who is a...mushroom person? Fungus person? He doesn't speak, but the others seem to know what he's saying. I met a small witch girl who was a bit rude, but her heart was in the right place. She explained to me that it was possible to cure my cancer IRL. But I needed to get rid of the "Scarred" drawback I had on my character sheet first. Then I could get the cancer healed in game and then...finally I could make moves towards having that effect carried over IRL. It's something. I'll give it all I've got! I just have play more games and win more contracts and I've got this! I was practically shaking with excitement as I left the shambled halls of the Extralife guild. I need to find more time to play. I hope Dr. Hopkin will understand if I miss a few sessions. I have an actual chance of saving myself! I can have a life! I'm...I'm so happy I could cry!! I just need to find another game to start....

I couldn't get there quick enough. My heart was practically pounding by the time I made it to the front gate. I didn't know what answers I would get...but they were answers I wouldn't ignore. I checked in with Aegis who was busy as always. Though this time it didn't appear to be ban appeals. He gave a wave and told me that Emily was in her room like last time. I didn't need Felix to escort me. How could I forget the way there? Upon entering I was set upon by a thrown glass bottle that hit me in the face, splashing liquid all over me in the process. I caught the bottle as it fell away from my face and rubbed my head, as I set it down on a nearby table before asking Emily what the hell she was doing. She apologized, saying she thought I was something else.

I told her that I had managed to buy off the drawbacks that were preventing me from being healed. However, something had happened. When I attempted to obtain a "Heal Battle Scar" gift for myself, the system auto-assigned the "Selfless" drawback just like my "Heal Injury" power. I couldn't target myself.... Emily explained that it might be a self ingrained subconscious notion that my cancer is apart of me. That I had given up hope. That I had accepted the cancer as a normal part of me.... I snapped. I was livid. I couldn't accept this. I screamed at Emily. My body acted on its own as I pressed up against her. Pinning her to a table. She was frightened. But I was even more frightened by the possibility that I had given up inside. "I may have given up hope at one point...because there was no hope. But I never...NEVER accepted this as a part of me. I WILL NEVER ACCEPT THAT!!!". I realized what I was doing and looked down at Emily who was just trying to explain the situation. She meant no ill will towards me. She just was trying to help. I backed off and apologized, letting us both calm down. After a minute of silence Emily explained that selfless wasn't that hard to get rid of. I just needed to get an improvement point to buy it off. More steps.... The words slipped from my mouth before I had a chance to catch them. "I don't know how much time I have left. If it was a single year, I would be astonished...". Emily couldn't help but stare at the ground. I was shaking. This wasn't the outcome I had hoped for by returning here. Emily said that she couldn't cure the battle scars but could offer me a temporary solution until I could find someone who could. She whipped up a concoction in her cauldron and pulled out a small bead, offering it to me. I took it and ate before feeling a warm soothing sensation wash over me. She told me that it was a cleanse that would alleviate the negative effects of diseases that cannot be cured by modern medicine. I felt a little better, but then it hit me. Issac mentioned that he hated debuffs and had also taken a "Heal Battle Scar" power. Holy shit I knew someone who could help still. I turned to leave and then stopped. I looked back at Emily and her wooden leg. I had been accepting all this help from others. But I had powers too. I could help. I wanted to help. I asked Emily how her she had lost her leg. If I could find out information about it, then I could possibly restore it! She didn't turn around and simply said "Goodbye Abigail". I was crushed, but I understood. I turned to leave and told her that I would be back sometime and walked out the door. I needed to contact Issac. But there were other things going on as well. Perhaps he wouldn't mind helping out with them as well....

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