So I got back home in my hub. and I started my lovely relaxation and started exercising. My digivice and a digivolution card finally appeared in front of me. great now that I have this I can digivolve. I hope this will prove to be useful, though I did always wonder why it went from bidepal anthro to feral ninetails. maybe it should have been the other way round with renamon being much more impressive. shrug. it is what it is. I also plan on eventually putting this place in Arcania, it seems like my kind of place. magic, kitsune, and waifuus. Other things I need to take care of is learning new gifts and improving myself in such a way that i won't have to worry about survival. I need to get to novice atleast.

I wonder if I will ever get a digidestined of my own? how would that even work though, how weird lol.

I got absolutely nothing I just want to rest and sleep and not have to deal with this, but I am stuck doing that. cause I didn't earn anything worthwhile last game so I am sitting here bored and once again wondering why i never get grit first or something maybe next time i make a new character that would be better i guess. we really need to get more out of this even if we fail. this may just be the bitterness talking, but I really feel like we get shafted every time we lose a game. no progress, little to no experience, and no skills powers whatever, not even loot.  Maybe we should have a rule implemented that basically means even if you die you keep loot you get in game or something. nah that's wishful thinking it wont happen no siree. I just have to sit here and look at the moking game journal.

Ah home sweet home, actually won this time wewt and I added grit so I am able to power through without penalties. and I finally got rid of that tinnitus. Now I just need to improve my abilities and work to make sure I am improving. As for the other stuff I have to do well all that is just me resting, relaxing, reading and hoping for the best. I getting closer and closer to becoming a digimon, and not only in name or appearance. Oh and note to self don't let anyone betray you again. 

I will not be treated as a monster, I have thoughts and feelings too damnit.  for the future I am going to get a hacking power or armor power. maybe come up with a bs attack or something that has major range. otherwise I will have to deal with that issue again and i don't want to again.