Right back in my cell, just looks different now.

When I was teleported back into Foundation custody I was immediately hit with sleeping gas through the vents. Guess it makes sense they would have that set up...

Woke up in some sort of snowy cottage, new clothes and a lot less security. I poked around a bit, summoned my Boys, but they couldn't seem to interact with anything. Looking around, the place was staged to make it look like I just woke up from a coma and had memory problems.

Motherfuckers actually tried to tell me the last ten years of my life have all been in my head, that I've actually just been delusional and they're trying to "help" me.

Even had the gaul to say my parents had visited me and I just didn't remember it. Cherry on top, they said I had broken out and killed them at one point.

They'll regret doing this to me.

Dr. William Wallace, D.O. 
Confidential Therapist Notes on date |Redacted| location |Redacted|. For traveling shift 2 (employer C.S.)

Traveled to |Redacted|. Session focused on trauma that occurred in |Redacted| |Redacted| years ago.

Initial trauma patient found to be aware of said trauma, quite resistant to addressing it through typical therapeutic techniques, and in the process of continuous self-sabotage. Unclear what their goals were, as the interaction quickly became hostile. Unfortunate force was used; medical care given immediately. 

Second trauma patient found to be immediately hostile, however not resistant to typical therapeutic techniques. Discussion of the roots of trauma, with sharing of personal trauma as willing, helped to bring down tensions and led to further understanding of trauma for patient. Patient accepted medicine as well as |Redacted| as therapy objective given by |Redacted|. Both seemed to have immediate effect.

Q: Has taken it upon self to protect others, particularly S, and forming a strong relationship with the latter. Unclear whom the relationship benefits more. Shown to be mostly clear-headed in crisis. Has grown to be more understanding of trauma.

P: Shown to have the right instincts in crisis, if not the ability to carry them out fully. Have some worry over their ability to protect themselves when facing a non-traditional fight. Shows clear compassion and empathy towards' others pain, even to point of putting self in danger in attempt to fix.

S: Continuing to forge strong relationships with other coworkers, one of a paternalistic nature. Relationships seem to be nurturing and mutually beneficial for mental health. Shown to be clear-headed and able to think clearly in crisis. Seems to have understanding of when and how to use medicine as stabilization, and knowledge that it is often only the first step in addressing trauma.

Since I started this strange new job, a lot of things have started coming easier to me. My memory's still not so good, but that's why the journaling! As I go about doing my day job I find my feet surer, my pack lighter. I feel like I've upped my endurance training regimen by a factor of five, but it's only a little harder. It's amazing! The new job is terrifying of course, and so the new strength is much appreciated - I need to keep myself safe while dealing with all these horrors. I'm hoping that part calms down, but for some reason I can feel in the back of my head like I already know it's only going to get worse from here. Like it's happened before, you know? I don't have anything about that in my notes though. So, it's probably nothing.

[There's a portion a few lines long scratched out so it is unreadable.]

I find myself sleeping little these recent nights - I am haunted by a past thought dusted and forgotten in the wake of more important things; a ghost I'd thought I'd left behind.

Father, what hell have you brought upon our family?

My father's writings have consumed me; I spend my nights poring over his journals and his letters, trying desperately to pull the arcane from the financial. There's a morbid banality to the records I now know tally the fortunes of matters beyond mortal ken. In the reading, I am summoned once more to my boyhood, when he would sit me at his desk on summer evenings and enlist my aid in balancing his ledgers, so that I may someday learn to do the same. I wonder, in my ignorance, did I send any poor souls to meat the same fate as my mother? With the art of a child's arithmetic, did I condemn unknowing victims to a wasting death? Damn him! Damn him a thousand times for what he's compelled my complicity in, long before I had the understanding to know different.

I wonder, do I now damn myself the same? Do I plunge myself into the same pit of depravity and malfeasance as my accursed sire?

More importantly, can I afford not to?

What have you left me to, Father? What world did you live in, that you kept hidden from your family, and to what end? Was Mother a hapless victim to your machinations, or was she your conspirator? If so, to what purpose did the two of you exclude me from an education in the occult?

I find myself not embarking upon but in the middle of a perilous journey; a ship I boarded before I knew how to chart a course. I am adrift - lost at sea, with naught but devils and monsters to guide my way.

Would that I had a lighthouse - some guiding principle by which I may ensure my course is true - but I am caught in the dark of night, and I know not when dawn will come.

Mother, how I wish that you were here...

Quincy approached me and started talking about forests. Notes follow:

Ancient Forest around his manor, family keeps it safe.

Unused. No Hunting. Wolves and other wildlife.

Quincy's ancestor made a bargain with a god that their family would protect it for prosperity as long as the forest is maintained.

Quincy didn't believe in story, called it a folk tale, but likes the environment and supporting it. Recently, due to the situation we found ourselves in, he has thought it might actually be there after all, and wants to speak to it.

He wants a guide?

Explained my job. Backpacking trips are on paths, not just exploring wilderness. He seems to still wants my help. Doesn't need me to do anything supernatural.

$20,000 is offered. At first I think it's too much, but I realize it would cover the hazard pay for the supernatural danger.

He thinks I'm quick to assume ill intent. He requests that I "not upset it". I agree.

Dr. William Wallace, D.O. 
Confidential Therapist Notes on date |Redacted| location |Redacted|

Accepted a new part-time position today. Had to reschedule Mrs. A but she should be able to schedule with Dr. Tompson. 

Part-time position will have me taking on travel jobs once a month. Possibly to dangerous locale and/or with dangerous people. Will need to assess what may need to be added to my toolkit for this. Fire-arm defense classes may be needed as well.

Encountered three co-workers during first job for part-time position. Will refer to as S, Q, and P ongoing.

Successfully completed first job, albeit with injury to myself and S. P provided medical care and Q provided a place to rest. Additionally, Q helped set up remote toolkit so that the remainder of patient appointments for the week could be carried out as scheduled.

(See notes in patient files for remote appointments taken. Will need to schedule medication appointments for Mr. B and will need to follow up on self-defense clinics for A.S. and L.W.)

Coworker Notes

S: Worryingly young for what they are doing and seeing. Will want to follow up with Q on family/home situation and consider contacting the appropriate social services. Does seem fairly well-adjusted for the situations that are implied by conversations so far, although not well-nourished. Can consider setting up meal plans in coordination with S. Goals at this time: Help with independence, help with nourishment, help with adjustment to society.

Q: Typically British in several senses, does not see need for mental health services despite being an Armed Forces veteran. Has resources should they choose to use them, has a good sense of how to use those resources to help others. Could be a resource for setting up mental health services in the UK. Can consider journaling as an initial step. Goals: Understanding personal goals further, help with mental health.

P: Occasional memory issues and/or lack of judgment; will need more time spent to fully understand. A stronger nature person than people person. Could be a good resource for setting up nature-based mental health services. Could consider linking them to local Girl Scout organizations; would avoid linking them to schools and/or Boy Scouts. Can consider meditation and mindfulness. Goals: Understanding personal goals further, help with slowing down and focusing.

Session Notes

Encountered what may be a group that we will need to encounter again in the future. Found them to be unwilling to be encountered, without hostility being directed at us. Unlikely to have potential of integrating into their group in order to learn more. Will need to further understand the implications of what we did and the immediate after-effects. Will need to speak with P to understand the importance of how and why to continue in specific ways. Best to avoid traditional channels as well as speaking with law enforcement.