Valentine's Questionnaire

              I'm currently staying at an apartment complex near my parent's Law firm, I'm not too happy about it but it's all I got right now so I'll accept it.
             
              I think I'm staying here mainly because I like chicago? It's where I grew up and i've been here my whole life y'know? I don't think I would enjoy being                        anywhere else but I really am open to the experience! I've actually been considering purchasing my own place somewhere to build a nice field where me                    and Darlin' can just have fun!

              My apartment right now is sort of a mess...I'm not too great at doing chores since Darlin' always wants to be doing other things. There's a nice gym a few                  minutes away from my apartment that lets me stay fit but other than that my apartment is pretty generic. I do have some pretty sweet posters of the cubs                in my bedroom and have some jerseys of my favorite cub pitchers! 

                My parents actually provided me with a card for my expenses. They've been sorta getting in my hair about what I should be doing to "keep their family                      name untarnished" but I really just want to play baseball with Darlin'. I hate not being allowed to get out there and be popular and meet people just                          because my parents don't want me too, I'm an adult now! I should be allowed to do things if I want too! 
               
                One day I'll find a way to live independently, These contracts have actually been very helpful in figuring out ways to get money without my parents but the                  card is just so convenient... 
               
                Darlin' eats through my card so quickly, the snacks required to keep a symbiote are NOT cheap. Apart from that, I just pay rent and buy groceries while                      sometimes treating myself with new baseball equipment or paraphernalia 

                  I want a world where me and Darlin' feel safe and accepted. If I were able to play baseball without fear from public scrutiny and being called a "monster"                    and "inhuman" that would be amazing. I know it's super unrealistic and the government is like horrible or something but I don't think we should be                            targeted just because we have some cool abilities here and there. If you have an ability that just makes batting super easy then good for you! But just                        know that I am a pretty amazing pitcher myself so it balances out in that way. Superhumans should at least have their own branch of playing sports. 

                  I think the best way to achieve this is probably starting the team and growing support from the public. The general public wouldn't be too keen on it                          because of current laws but I believe the baseball community with accept me, everyone should have the opportunity to play baseball, superhuman or                          not. 

                  I don't want to kill to achieve this goal at all, I think I have to kill people to be able to "grow" as the contracts state but I will be as peaceful as I can be                      to achieve my dream of starting a team. I shouldn't have to topple the government to just be myself in the world of baseball. 

                      Finding Darlin'! I have quite literally never been the same since. I really don't know where I would be without them right now. They helped me stay                            sane in the lonely world of law and I was able to escape the life that was being forced onto me because of them. Meeting Darlin' and them accepting                          me is probably the best thing that's ever happened to me. Having someone there to speak with and bounce ideas with is amazing. 

                      I won't lie Darlin' can be intrusive at times and give me some benefits and affects that I didn't ask for, but they do these things because they want me                        to succeed, they want us to succeed. I won't let us down. 

                  Many people have saved my life throughout my contracting career and I hold them all to high regard! I honestly wish I could name everyone that has impacted my life but I appreciate Dr. Rhea the most, She rehabilitated me when I needed it most and I cannot repay her for that. Ever.

Another person in my life is Ky Matranaga, they've shown me that not everyone is redeemable and not everyone is perfect for your vision. Although Ky could be a major asset in my dreams to enjoy something as simple as a sport, they're just too...much. 

The person I grew closest to was probably Oliver, Slug saved my life just as I saved his, me and Jason Brennings bonded over baseball yes but Slug was there when we needed him most and with open arms no less. Such an accepted soul was too good for this world. 

                       I played a lot of baseball throughout my childhood! It's all I really ever focused on and wanted to get better and better, I was really into it for a 10 year old haha... My parents got bored of it after the second game they had to go to and stopped really caring about the games.

My parents are two lawyers from the Chicago area, I don't want to name them because of personal reasons but they weren't the most...parental? They help me a lot on the day to day but they don't really act like normal parents if that makes sense. I wish they supported me more emotionally y'know.

School was nice, I attended highschool and got a diploma with honors and took all the AP classes I could, it was hard to balance sports and AP classes but that's what my parents expected of me. I was able to fit in real well with the baseball team but we always had the gap of home life. They could invite me over but I could never have anyone over or even talk about my parents without coming under scrutiny. 

                    I still remember the moment I caught a ball for the first time. It felt like a had the world in my hands as my father tossed me the ball. From then on I was obsessed with baseball and my parents supported it! I was finally finding something that could make my parents proud. I was the best on my team at my local little league and my parents were all there for it. As the year passed however my parents lost the love for the sport that I was experiencing and it really bummed me out. I couldn't understand if they didn't love me anymore or if they just had other things to do or something... I was young and all I cared for was the sport and making my parents proud. 

                    I still wanted to play but...my parents wanted me to move on and it ate me up little me's tiny heart back then. I was on the brim of giving up and just going on to become the "perfect" son they wanted me to be and follow along in their "amazing" plans for me to become a lawyer, and that's when I found Darlin'. 
Darlin' reinvigorated my love for the sport, I was excelling in JV sports and when I moved on to Varsity I was performing at an amazing level. That of course wasn't enough for my parents but it was enough for us. I had was finally enjoying the sport again and had the means for being supported emotionally. 

                   The feeling of being on the mound, the batter's cold stare as your prepare a pitch, winding up a pitch, feeling the ball leave your fingers, and the cheering as they strike out from your team as we win, it was amazing, it is amazing. 





WE LOVE BASEBALL RAAAAH!!!!!!!

                     
                       My most prized possession is probably my pitching mitt, a gift from my father when I was first starting out. He told me, "Once you're old enough to use this, you'll be in the big leagues". I tried it on after every game and it was always too big. In my final year of highschool I tried wearing it and it never fit, even in my final match of the year that we won, it still didn't fit. It really ate me up inside that I couldn't use the mitt, was I just not meant for the big leagues? 
That's when Darlin' stepped in, they were able to bond with the mitt and resize it and I was finally able to use it. It's been super helpful and the nostalgia it gives me means a lot to me. I think my dad was trying to tell me I'll never be in the big leagues so I'm happy to prove him wrong. 

                       Dr. Rhea's funeral, I have to plan it and I've never really done anything like that before. I'm actually thinking of calling up someone I know who deals with a lot of death and they actually knew Rhea as well so I think they'll be able to help me a lot. I don't consider the funeral itself an actual issue/problem it's just a lot for me to handle. That night eats me up inside and I'm a little afraid that people will start asking me what happened and think I'm an unredeemable monster for what I did- or rather what I didn't do. 
I think the funeral will be nice though, I'll prepare a piece and prepare snacks for the event. I want it to be nice, fair, and modest. I didn't know Dr. Rhea on a deep emotional level but I'm responsible for making sure she is remembered. 

Rest in peace, Dr. Rhea. 

                        My morning usually starts with being woken up by Darlin', I'm not sure they sleep? I think they go in a dormant state or something. Anyways! They wake me up with some weird shivering they do, I'm pretty used to it at this point so it's like a weird alarm. After that a throw on some earbuds and listen to some Bill Withers as I brush my teeth and go about my morning. I usually shower at night since I don't like waking up musty or gross smelling, sometimes contracts end with you covered in vomit and shit so you just gotta get a shower in y'know? I prepare myself some breakfast after that, making sure Darlin' agrees with the choice (usually something super sweet I have no idea how I don't have 90 cavities). Then the clothing of choice, I usually go for something casual when I'm not on a job. I like to keep my contract persona and my me in two different vibes, something nice like a T-shirt and some jeans usually does it. I don't go out often, mostly for groceries and working out at my local gym. Luckily I have been able to make a few gym bro friends.