Harald Seine's Questionnaire

Well I live in the nice town of Belmont, Indiana.
I live here because well its my hometown, been here since I was born and I never really found a reason to leave.
Like yea travel is theit to do, I went to Finland for a summer to stay with relatives and it was beautiful. Out of state but here in the U.S I went to a bunch of places, a week at a relative's in Iowa, Illinois, Ohio. Mainly for special events like weddings, first birthdays, or if my Pa wanted to go visit his family and couldn't leave me alone.
Also, it has this majestic greenery for having our farm on the outside of the main of town, really enjoy daily walks. 
But yea no desire to leave simply. 

Our home is a relatively neat place, it's a farm what do you expect?
We grow Corn and Squash, and then smaller things mainly for sale being peppers, cabbages, tomatoes, your greens basically.
I myself though got an apiary on the far corner where I sell if I have a lot, but it's mainly for my own consumption of the lovely honey.
So expect that around the farm.
We got our main building the family house, it's an average-looking big 2-story house, with an attic. 
Its a house, I eat, sleep, live in it and it is where my stuff is.
The thing is old but we did some recent renovations for structural integrity and stockpiled the basement in case of tornadoes.
We have our big garage that is a separate building and is able to fit two cars side by side, and just a general place to work on cars or hangout as it does have chairs, tables, and beer in the fridge.
Then we got our big field which as said is mainly host to corn so thats what your gonna find walls of mainly.
We have our big tool house, the other big building that his host to well our tools and machines like tractors, Combines, Planters, the works, alongside if needed
pesticides, herbicides, and fertilizers. Its where all the big stuff for farming goes.
Then we got 2 silos on the plot for mainly as usual, corn if you can believe it.

Its pretty obvious, you farm.
Specifically Corn and Squash as you get the lovely tax benefits from doing so though we do sell other crops at a lower scale and more on a local farmers market level whenever we get a good yield and think we don't need that much.
Aside from the usual things to spend money on, like taxes, bills, maintenance on all vehicles and tools, and general upkeep.
Indulge in hobbies if enough is saved, like hunting, baking, or just books to stay mentally ready for what the world throws at you.
Do you really like them Boy Scout books or philosophical stuff like Leaves of Grass.
However when the time comes, you do start to save to try and buy better equipment or tools. Stay ahead of the game and try to make the plants last.
Thats really the whole acquiring and spending of money situation.

It's well simple and not simple and I know I gotta acknowledge things that I find uncomfortable or not morally right in any way to get what I want, but I will do it.

I am striving to make a heaven, a plane or a place where one returns back to the grass, dirt, and earth. They come back to a place to finally rest and be at peace, a haven to relax all worries and let go. To find solace in everything you have done, to after a lifetime of fighting and doing what you want alive to fall back to where they come from. Simply you wish to give those who continue the cycle of life a realm, a heaven, to be united in death and ascend past human worries due to all our differences for that won't matter, once you return to the earth you may be united and become a vast as the human soul is meant to be. 
As all Souls are equal, they are connected as thanks to nature and how everything they have done has a effect upon both each other as to how they live, and rely on each other. Humanity is integral to it, the natural world. I want them to be given heaven as thanks to the progress and time spent, for them to enjoy the the life in death as now one with nature, or even if they desire to be rebirthed from it and experience another form of life as a bird to the sky, a fish for the sea, or man once more to experience beyond our little planet. Only then to return back in death and tell us all, the wisdom and inspiration that will be written and admired.

I would kill for it and die for it as it is a goal that exceeds beyond death, and hope when you die.
I will come back grander and stronger and try, try, and try again remembering my duty to the world.

Well, my father died, and he left behind something I never knew about him or myself and kinda started my whole goal.
He didn't die in some weird or stupid way, I think he was looking towards it in his last days.
During his deathbed he told me, I found it weird at the time and very hurtful but it was the truth.
He said I was not his child, I was never his real son, and that I was a child of the Forest which I thought he was senile as hell for telling me, and that whatever drugs they had him on made him high as hell. 
He then proceeded to ask me to take him back to the family graveyard, which involved a road trip to Chicago and a flight to Finland.
When we got there, it was odd as it was family I barely met and they all gave me the usual look which is a bit disgust mixed in with concern as to both me and my father.

I was told to take him to him far into the mountain with the large forests a good distance away, and it was both regret and well I guess bewilderment when we got far into it. It started raining and we even saw a rainbow, he told me to let him rest by this grand large tree that I could have never seen, the best comparison is the grand sequoia.

While he lay there, he told me the gist.
I was never his real son, his son was taken by a faerie or something.
I was just a changeling, a leftover by the creature.
That I was brought here in order to be united with his son, as was part of the deal in order to get him back.

It was then there that it awoke within me.
The emotion, the truth, hell even timing and place.
My embrace by nature was ravenous by all hell.

I promptly broke in the form of a bear and mauled my own father.
I felt a massive regret, but he died with this face of acceptance. Its as if he knew this were to be his fate.
When I awoke the blood had be absorbed by the earth, the flesh and muscles gone, it was simply his skeleton and clothes that were left.

The deal that he had probably meant that they would be united by nature or something of the sort, beyond the mortal coil.

With well what I am now, I have suffered changes and am well thought out now.
I am going to try and well give back to my father, a grand apology if I can even try.
He is the origin as to why I am doing my ambition, to create a heaven in nature where one sees how we are connected, rest easy and see how life goes on and maybe even return to it in a different form.

Kieran Carmine - Your Best Friend and Main guy.
Your buddy who you have known since elementary school, you still hang out today and even been his best man at his wedding.
He currently lives in Indianapolis and is working in something relating to computers, you occasionally meet up and go out to eat, shoot the shit, and go hunting.

Luther Koolidge - A casual friend and employee
With your father's recent death and dealing with the entire farm by yourself being a hassle,
You have recently hired this guy, he got chosen well because he is physically capable and he is currently in a gap year as he will go to major in agriculture and start his own farm somewhere around here so you are getting help and giving help in turn.

Edna Forsmith - Your most distant friend, both in friendship and distance.
They are the owner of a bakery you frequently visit nearly on a weekly basis due to your diet, the bakery being "The Peach Cobbler Factory"
You meet with her sometimes whether it be a nice hello after a solid purchase or even a small time to converse and talk about each other's lives.
You are happy that they don't question your unhealthy purchasing of high sugar foods on a weekly basis, so all's well ends well.

"My childhood well it was macabre"

"I knew I was in a great place, but far off from where I truly am."
"Like yea, I went through the cliches, it's all boring, it's all shit."
"Went through school gettings As and Bs, Football and went to parties, college came running and I decided to go to it to help my father."

"Feels like it was all for nothing, but I guess also not with everything I know now."
"My father? Well his name is Antti, sounds like an auntie, I know. He was a good man, he was well a little odd but loved. I always saw him as boring then to be reminded with small things, how he drives for example. He drives like an insane man, no hands on the wheel on a straight road, rolling his own cigarettes. He had achieved this small freedom in his day to day. He was harsh but true, like when I whined and complained, he would always reuse the same excuse as like 'look at me, am I complaining.' He was a good father, I loved him, I miss him."

"My mother....I dont really know her, but with everything going on. She is something beyond you or me in some manner, a manner which goes into the core of this earth. The foilage and greenery, the rain and clouds, the animals itself. She is somewhere within there I believe, as its the only reason I can think of for why I am changing this way."

"Before I get outta here, take my smoke break and fuck off back home. I will say managed to fit in, but I never believed I was truly in."
"My head was always lookin towards the next day outsides, climbing hills and looking at the views, nature preserves and grand parks were my greatest home, I felt it was the best place that I truly fit it in. Its quiet, peaceful, and releases all your stress. Try it out, I recommend it."

"I have multiple times. There is your usual crush, the girl that catches your eye. The one you wanna talk to but you're just not that confident and feel like you can ruin it all in one shot, that feeling decided it for me."

"The one love that I had stuck with longest, well it was a girl named Evangeline. We dated throughout high school, she was this very nice girl who said she just didn't like saying no. She wanted to go work in microbiology or something of the sort, medical. I supported you through and through, we made it all through our struggles. It was just the end of high school that started the sinking ship, the ice that sunk it."

"Through college, we began being pulled apart by life, interests and goals. I wanted to stay with my father and settle down, she wanted to go above and beyond. She even got an invitation to go to some top college, texts, calls, and letters held us by the binds. We both realized it wasn't going to work at the end of it all."

"We shared one last date, had some words, and said our goodbyes understanding that we just had different thoughts on how things might be. I hope that we meet up one day and have another go at the whole thing, but at this rate and where I am going."

"It's going to be looking like a divine comedy."