Carter Train's Questionnaire

I live Near Northwest Arctic Borough, AK, high up in Mt Angayukaqsraq. I do not live in the city. I do not like the people.. the taint of the wyrm is too strong, even here in the frozen wastes. I live here because my people lived here. Because this was our home. Because it will be our home again some day. I live here because it is peaceful, and I can be with Gaia here. And Luna. I am here because I can be myself here, and I can live as nature intended me to. I hope to one day see the whole world return to its natural state, and what humans remain becoming one with nature again.

Bah. Money is a construct of the Wyrm. What many I have comes from people who wondered too close to my home. Nature provides me with what I need. Gaia is good to me, as I am good to her. Money will never be something I strive for, anymore than any other animal. It is a corrupt thing. There was nothing wrong with simply exchanging goods, and helping your community using the skills you were blessed with, and if you have no skills, you do not survive. The weak do not last in the wild, and should not breed to make more weaklings. 

I strive to return the world to its proper state. To do this, I will have to reconnect to lady Gaia, and mistress Luna, and dig deep into myself and my ancestors. I must become the Gurahl. The healer of the world. It is my purpose, my calling, and what I shall do. I will paint the snow red with the blood of the servants of the wyrm and weaver. I will purge Gaia of the sickness that has been left to spread across her, and I will do it with pride and honor, or I will die trying. I will spare the hairless monkeys that return to the natural order of the world, and will lay low those that insist on corrupting and killing the world thy live on. 

When my native mother died, and my Russian father tried to "civilize" me, I ran away from home and into the wilds. There, I did what my mother taught me to do my spirit quest into adulthood. I knew the herbs needed and where to find them. I went high into the mountains to take my test. It was there that I discovered my true lineage. I learned of the truth of the Gurahl, and the earth mother, and that both my parents were kinfolk. I learned that I was more, and was meant for more. When I awoke, I was a bear. I lived as a bear for a number of years after that, though I don't remember how long before I remembered I was also a man. I never did go home. I don't know if my father even went to look for me. I don't really care either.

Luna: the moon goddess. The bestower of the blessings I have been given. She has blessed me, and given me a purpose. Her silver glow baths me in love and power. I am her warrior and child, and I will do my best to make her proud.

Gaia: my home, my ward, and my goddess. Luna's job for me is to heal Gaia. To protect her and restore her to her vibrant beauty. It is what I live for. 

My father: I know little of him anymore... I do know that he came here from Russia in the times of world War 2. He found my mother in one of the native tribes. I have not gotten conformation of whether he stole her, or if she went willingly... but I know he felt their fellow kinship to the bear. My father denied the bear his whole life, and in doing so, denied his son.

My childhood was... confusing. My father was a Russian man, an ex soldier of some importance, but had fled to Alaska to hide for some reason or another. I never did find out why. While there, he stumbled upon an Inupiaq village. He paid his way there for a while by training the men in firearms, and doing manual labor. While there, he met and fell in love with my mother. They ran away together into the mountains to start a life. Like too many relationships, however, some things were not discussed ahead of time. My father was a practical man, full of training and practicality. My mother was in line to be a medicine woman and was full of spirituality. This did not cause conflict until my father wanted to hunt, or my mother had me doing too many "primitive superstitions" that my chores got neglected. After my mother died, I had learned enough to keep those "Superstitions" alive, but only in secret around my father. 

It is hard to fall in love when you are too far away to see anyone. I have had the primitive urge to Mate, but that is not the same thing. And I have resisted those urges. Perhaps I will one day find a love, but I will not make the mistake of my parents. There will be long talks about everything that will be important for the future.... if they are human. I could, perhaps, find a nice bear to settle down with. Have some cubs that may carry my gifts. But it is important to finish the quest before finding a mate. It would not do to leave a mate that is unsuitable to teach the cubs.