Zoe Hall's Questionnaire

I live in a small cheap apartment just outside downtown ann arbor MI 
My room mate, (A friend I have known since middle school) talked me into sharing the rent so we could be close to the University of Michigan campus to which we both attend.
I work a boring call center job from home.
we have a small kitchen/dining room combo
a short hallway leading to the one bedroom and bathroom.
my friend and I have the room split into to halves
on her side she has a cheap Walmart desk that looks like it could fall apart any second and a cage with her pet lizard.

on my side I have my own cheap desk I use for work and drawing.

The wall behind my desk is plastered with marker drawings of all the wonderful places I like to imagine might exist somewhere out there.

Right now I'm working as a from home telemarketer.
Basically I call customers of my internet provider and try to upsell them on bigger packages Things like add a phone line, better cable, or Laser gecko insurance plans (those things are a real menace.)
I make minimum wage for the time I work plus commission on sales. it's an ok income which helps pay for classes and my escapist hobbies (drawing/reading/movies/games) My room mate and I split up the bills so I'm only responsible for internet (I get a great discount through work) and my half of rent.
It's really crazy how expensive everything is! but for now I'm getting by.

Shiet this one might get a bit to real.
My Dream, Is to live long enough to see and hear all the things
I want to experience Love, heartbreak, anger, joy, happiness, sadness, loss, consequences, redemption, EVERYTHING.
and I don't want to just dip my toes in it!
I want to spend years. tens of years, hundreds of years experiencing each thing.
maybe a full life as a housewife, then a hard working business elite! then maybe get into a music career. become an artist, rescue animals, go mountain climbing, visit the stars, be free to do whatever I can imagine

My heart yearns for it so much I don't know what I wouldn't give for my dream to come true. But I know it could never happen.

I cant think of a single defining moment.
I have always liked the idea of trying new things, I like to solve problems, explore the unexplored, share what I learn, and lead by example.
I cant remember a time before curiosity was my driving factor.
in fact the only strong defining memories I have in my life are moments that stamp the love and curiosity out of me.
but it's still there I feel it, I know it's there. I may never achieve my dreams but I will also never deny that they exist.
It's really a shame life is so cold and un caring.

My best friend and room mate Shelbie has been in my life since middle school.
She's the take no shit from anyone say what she wants type.
I absolutely adore her and whenever I come up with a new fantastical world she never skips a beat in pretending to be someone from it just to make me smile.
She likes cute little lizards and has a LOT of brothers like 10!
She is always there for me whenever I need emotional support and I try my best to always be there for her too.

Next is my cat Simon Gilford the third.
He's my perfect baby boy he doesn't mind when I pick him up he always comes when he's called and definitely protects me from evil spirits.
Last week he was staring at the ceiling for like 10 minutes straight, it felt really cold when I stood where he was looking, and then after he stopped it stopped being cold there. definitely a ghost. He's a cute and very rare calico cat boy.

Finally my mom who has always supported me and pushes me to be the best me I can, I left her back in Belleville but she still calls every day to check up on me.
Honestly People aren't the closest things to me. what I really love is a good book.

Growing up I lived in a fairly normal neighborhood.
My mother wanted the best for me and would work extra hard to afford to send me to summer camp and other various after school activities.
I loved trying out new things whether it was martial arts, dance, art classes, the shooting range, learning to drive.
I am always down to learn a new skill and picked up everything I could find as a kid. admittedly once I felt like I was starting to master a skill I'd get bored though and move onto something new.
My Mother's name is Susan Cup Hall (I asked my woman this was what she came up with.)
she is a loving supportive single mother who held me to my word and is my biggest inspiration.
even in my earliest memories I cannot remember my father although mother says he was in my life for the first 10 years.
In school I had a small group of friends, My bestfriend is now my roommate going into college where I'm majoring in Psychology.

It seems like every day I'm getting approached or DMed by boys and some girls too.
but honestly it's so annoying that the idea of being in a relationship just kinda leaves a bad taste in my mouth.
I'm not against it or anything just want it to really mean something and I feel like everyone else is just out to get laid.

Honestly though this is an uncomfortable subject and I'd really rather not talk about it.
My biggest fear really is just that ill never find a meaningful relationship and end up feeling lonely for the rest of my life.

For as long as I can remember I have been afraid of deep water.
maybe deep water isn't the right term.
I'm afraid of things being murky
like a giant structure or creature suddenly coming into view on a foggy day.
or all the massive things deep down in the water that I cant see.
It's a pretty typical fear of the unknown kind of fear.
but It's truly terrifying to me to just see something massive appear out of the murk.

Other then that.
I suppose My biggest fear Is That my life will end short before I get to see all the sights and feel all the feels
I want to know what its like to love and lose.
I want to know what its like to find true happiness
I want to know what its like to Live a simple life.
I want to live an extravagant life
I want to be part of something huge
I want to watch major events from the side.
I want to be part of it all.
The idea of not getting to be all these things and more
It really tears at my heart like the worst feeling I can imagine.

other then that. bugs are pretty creepy I guess?

Ps. I have submitted this question and it won't take it. why?

Ok This is going to come off as cheesy but.
My favorite thing I have is my mind.
I can think, I can feel, I can get frustrated, I can feel satisfied when overcoming things.
Without my mind I wouldn't be Me.

Other then that. I can't really think of anything so here's some lyrics to pass the time.

Happy llama
Sad llama
Mentally disturbed llama
Super llama
Drama llama
Big fat mama llama.Llama, llama, llama, who is this big llama?
Starting all this drama?
It's me bitch.Yes, I am that llama
That llama you despise
With those big ass eyes
And them luscious thighs
I mean, yes look at me I'm that l-l-a-m-a that doesn't even fucking care what you have to fucking say, oops!
Happy llama
Sad llama
Mentally disturbed llama
Super llama
Drama llama
Big fat mama llama.Back to the basics
I'm that bitch on craigslist
That looks like a rapist
Wait, why am I on craigslist?
Oh yeah, to buy a llama
That will be my new mama
Mama, llama
Mama, llama
Llama, llama
Mama, llama
Hold up! Wait a minute
Llama, llama, shining, shining, looking like a diamond, diamond
Llama, llama, shining, shining, looking like a diamond, diamond
Llama, llama, shining, shining, looking like a diamond, diamond
Llama, llama, shining, shining, looking like a diam...
Llama llama drop it, drop it
Don't, stop it, stop it
Llama llama pop it, pop it
Like a rocket, rocket1, 2, 4, 3
None of these llamas look better than me
And don't be mad
Don't be mean
Because I'm on your TV
Like "oh my god, who is he?"
I'm that llama you can't be
Five star llama starting drama
Like a big fat mama llamaEenie meenie miney mo
Seduce a llama like a pro
And if he hollers let me know
Cause Imma take that llama homeHappy llama, sad llama
Mentally disturbed llama
Super llama, drama llama
Big fat mama llama
Bring it back one more time in
La-looking like a diamond
My llama is so giant
You don't like me stay silent
SHHHHHRunning through the fields
With my woes where I belong
And if you hated me you wouldn't be
Singing this stupid song likeHappy llama, mad llama
Extremely depressed llama
Crazy llama, baby llama
Big fat lazy llamaHappy llama, rad llama
Extremely possessed llama
Hungry llama, grandma llama
Big fat pajama llamaHappy llama, sad llama
Mentally disturbed llama
Super llama, drama llama
Big fat mama llama

Right now it's these contracts.
you might think it's how tough they are, but that's not what I mean.
Living just isn't cheap and I have had to pick up extra work to keep the bills paid, these contracts aren't cheap (lol me spending almost nothing for each one)
and ontop of all that I have classes to study for 
Mr Brenner is not going to be happy with my English paper =/
although, with these changes since my last contract he's been a LOT nicer really so has everyone in my class. 
Oh! I almost forgot.
someone found my twitter and has been saying some really mean things on there about me.
I don't really know who or why they are doing this but it's been starting to stress me out D:
Shelbie has been furiously defending me on twitter over these people which is super sweet but honestly I think we should just leave them alone and it should blow over.

Honestly. I haven't even needed to sleep in a while now.
I just spend the night working on my classwork.
once it gets close to morning I hop in the shower
dry my hair, honestly lately it's been looking good no matter what I do with it o:
have some breakfast, usually a bowl of my favorite cereal frankenber- have you ever wondered... If you stab a leprechaun do lucky charms spill out everywhere?
sorry got sidetracked for a second.
after breakfast I go for a morning run, sometimes shelbie does the run with me.
and then a couple days of the weeks I have morning classes so ill go to those.
but if on the days I don't... yay customer service at my desk woo! ~-~

Maybe on this next contract ill get the power to pick winning lottery numbers so I don't have to work this stupid job while taking classes.
No... that would be way to convenient. it will probably give me bigger eyelashes or take away my eyesight at this rate lol.