Hope's Questionnaire

i live in a tree in a forest. maybe at Anthony's now? he said i could stay with him. i live there because i dont have a home here in this world. i used to have a home.

it was called Aviary Valley. it was beautiful. i had my own nest in a tower and there was a steward that i helped and everyone in the village was kind. they were all spirits that i helped, and there were places for more people, too, more spirits. i could get my hair changed or get new clothes or new furniture for my nest, like pillows and rugs and tables! i could talk to them or to the other Children and we could play and sit in the sun by the stream or fly. i miss it. i miss the soft sand and the cool water and the bright soft grass. i miss the people and the other Children. i miss it.

i want to go home.

what is money?

i don't know what money is, but i used to trade for stuff with candles! i would trade for new hairstyles or new clothes or new masks. i miss my wardrobe. i wish i could change my appearance, but from what Harriet has told me, even changing my mask or my hair or my wing wouldn't help me look human. we just look too different. we ARE too different.

is money like candles? is it used to trade for things? what does it look like? maybe Anthony will tell me about money and how to trade with it.

i want to save my kingdom! the light inside me kindles the ones inside of the spirits who came before me and by kindling them i can save them! i cant do anything about the buildings or the ruins but i can save the people and thats whats important. i want to save everyone! i want to go home so i can save them.

i dont want to kill anyone. but i guess thats not the question. maybe its also not true.

i DID kill those evil humans. or i helped my friends kill them. is that the same thing? i wanted them to hurt like theyd hurt others.

i dont know what death feels like. ive never passed through the Eye of Storm yet. i know i need to, or would have needed to, eventually. but it scared me. i dont know. i know we come back but ive heard it hurts.

being born! i wasnt and then i was! and the voices of the ones who came before me told me i needed to kindle their flames and it gave me a purpose. its what i was born for and it means i need to go home to help them! the other Children will help them too but i need to. its not fair that they have to and i cant.

it gave me friends too. i have new friends here in this world but its not the same. theyre not the same as my friends at home.

i dont want to leave Harriet behind though. not before i help her too.

Eye of Storm is one of the angels that we helped! we are friends now. Eye of Storm says that it isnt made for friendship or mercy. thats okay. i dont mind. ill still help it when it needs me! and ill still give it hugs when its sad. its scary and big and BEAUTIFUL just like the Eye of Storm at home. its got rings which are different but its center is big and hot and dangerous. i have to be very careful when touching it but i dont mind.

Vigilance is another angel we helped! i can give Vigilance hugs much easier. it can't talk like Eye of Storm can, but thats okay. it watches over the apartments and makes sure everyone is okay and thats really important too. its a big eye that doesnt look like my eyes but does look like human eyes! and its very shiny in a different way than Eye of Storm is shiny, and the reflections get all funny because of how its curved. it blessed the knife i took from those evil humans and ill never ever let it go.

Harriet is my new human friend! she told me about the evil humans and protected me while everything was really scary and going all weird. i think im closest to her because she IS made for friendship unlike the angels. i love the angels but they cant really feel things the same way so they told me. being close means that you both feel the same way about each other, right? i think so. Harriet is big and strong and beautiful like Eye of Storm and watchful like Vigilance and she gives really good hugs! shes scared to go back to the people that hurt her. she calls them "the foundation" and says they would hurt me. that they hurt her. i want to save her!

im still a child, silly!

i dont know what school is. and i dont have parents! there are the spirits of those that came before me, but theyre not my parents like how animals have parents. nobody gave birth to me. i just wasnt, and then i suddenly was!

is Harriet what a parent is like? she looks out for me and wants me to be safe. that's what some animal parents do.

i guess i fit in with the rest of the Children like me. nobody at home is mean to me. does that count?

i dont fit in with humans. im not from this world. Harriet says i have to stay away from them and that i cant be seen or else the "foundation" will come and take me away. i have to figure out how to go home soon so i dont have to worry about them.

i dont think ive been in love yet! ive been told that itll happen when im older. im not sure i like the idea. i love people but ive been told thats not the same. whats so different about being IN love?

maybe that it makes people act funny? ive seen spirits smooch, and hug differently than i would hug my friends. maybe that's it? but i dont know for sure.

maybe that it makes more people? animals in love make more animals. people in love dont always make more people though.

this is so confusing!!

i dont want to think about this anymore.