Motoha Arai's Questionnaire

I live in Sangenjaya, a district of Setagaya, Tokyo. It's a small neighborhood, but I enjoy it greatly, as no one makes me leave if I don't want to, which I don't. 

My home is very small, merely an attic I cleaned up and live in since my father doesn't want me to be far away from him, due to my illnesses. Its hard to get around sometimes, so I like the attic because it's bigger than any other room in the house..

Moreover, Setagaya is extremely minor compared to other aspects of Tokyo, so I can traverse it with my father pretty well. I am extremely thankful for this..

My father gives me a rather cumbersome allowance, however, I tend to not spend it on many things besides new games. 

Though I do occasionally order some tasty food, there is all sorts of food outside of Sangenjaya that I am not allowed to go to due to my issues.

The rest of the money I spend usually goes into some form of stock or other company investment, so I can repay my father when this is all done and over with..once I am fully recovered, we can enjoy ourselves and explore the world to its fullest, instead of being stuck in this room..

I want to investigate the depths of neo-genis, to its finest details, I don't know exactly how neo-genis works just yet but I will understand quickly enough..

My friend disappeared a few months ago, around when the neo-genis incidents began to spring up online. Despite them being covered up, they were no issue to find for someone like me. Once I begin I know there will be a point where I cannot turn back, so I will have to prepare for the ultimate test.

I am willing to do anything to complete my mission, even if it means tearing apart the weak fabric of reality the coded characters in neo-genis experience, I WILL find them, my friend, then find the complete secrets of Neo and put a stop to it.

My most defining life was, something rather simple, I..made friends with someone for the first time in my whole life, her name is Riko Takeba, my closest and yet also my only friend, even today..She made my world seem a bit less bleak when I was with her, she would accompany me everywhere I went, my father would actually allow me to go outside of the neighborhood with her!

Together we went and saw the ocean, I want to go back, and experience it once more, somewhere that isn't behind just a game world. I will find you, I promise..

As I've explained before, Riko Takeba is my closest friend and the only friend I've ever had due to this cursed illness that threatens to consume me if I exert myself too much. She used to take me places I wasn't usually allowed to go, because my father had the greatest trust in her to take care of me, should I fall ill out there..but now, she is gone..I am going to find her, I...I hope..

My Father is the other person in my life outside of the game world, he takes care of me as best as he can, though we don't make a bunch of money, so to help him out, I spend my time doing bounties to earn some small amounts of cash to help support us financially, it lets us get by.

My..Mother, She..isn't around anymore, not dead but..we just..don't interact anymore, please don't ask me further about them.

My childhood? It was rather bleak to be honest..I was always sick, so I had to be homeschooled, which meant I never got a chance to make friends, I wish I had a better chance of living my life early on, but the hospital trips always took up all my time, I am fairing much better now though, but I will likely remain this weak for the rest of my life..It..It makes me feel pathetic..

Oh, my parents? The only one that's around anymore is my father, Akimitsu Arai, we work together as best as we can, since his ex-wife and my mother left us, I..I don't even remember her face, that's how early on she left, I hate her..I wouldn't do anything to her but, I do hate her..she left us alone and helpless, and If she ever tries to make contact, There will be no reciprocation..

Oh...love? I never had a chance to fall in love..I was always sick, so I never got to really meet anyone besides the staff in the hospital near my home, though it was hard to tell how they looked since they all wore similar outfits, which is good I suppose, I..I should meet someone once I found what happened to my friend, maybe I can try to find someone who would help look after me..yeah right like that would ever happen, I'm just too full of physical problems, no one would ever want to be my partner like that..

My..worst fears? hmm..im, afraid of finding out what happened to my friend, I need to know, but I also know that It would truly mess me up If I found out that something horrible happened to her, I'm not sure how I would react If she was really dead, then I...I am afraid of what killed her, I know she was good at this game, but..If she was bled through like the others, would she even be in her own avatar? or would she be there in her real body, she may be fit but her body is still human, unlike her android avatar.

My other worst fear is that my father may pass, and I would be powerless to help him, we can barely sustain ourselves as is, and if he were to die, it would bring me to the brink, I have already lost my friend to the real world, but..without my father, I wouldn't be able to sustain myself, my home would be taken from me, my life would be taken from me again. I won't let this happen ever, I can't afford to...If I were to lose my father I wouldn't be able to help my friend, if she is even still around...

My most prized possession is an image me and my friend took of ourselves in front of the ocean, this was the last image we took before she bled through, and left me alone. this object is so special to me because It is the first time I was able to see the ocean, my friend helped me get there, she had earned the trust of my father to help me should things turn sour for me while we are out and about.

But, this image is the only item I truly care about, everything else I couldn't care about if it meant I could save this image..Its..its valuable to me, I hope she is okay, I'm afraid..of what she might..have had to happen to her, I know this game, Its... it's dangerous, I know it is, but It will be worth it ultimately, I hope..at least...

The biggest problem in my life? Well.. I'd have to say that it is my ever-prevalent illnesses and weak body, that prevent me from making friends or exploring the world like I want too, as I've said a few times before, I have only been able to see the ocean once, and that was with my only friend. 
I'm..stuck waiting for the possible cure to a shit immune system that prevents me from having a life. Which is very unlikely to ever happen. So, yeah that is definitely the biggest problem I have currently.

Though that does not mean there aren't other problems i have in my life, such as my friend being missing, or bled through as I've heard some players call it, I am not entirely sure if that's the case, but it is the most likely thing that happened, as she wouldn't just..ditch me, even if she ran away.

Hmm..getting ready for the world, well..I..typically don't, I usually spend most of my days in a various set of pajama's or other indoor clothing, since I barely am capable of going outside without getting sick. But I do, do the most basic things like bathing, brushing, showering, that sort. Though there isn't much else to my average morning, especially since my..friend is gone now.

However, when I did go out, I would do my best to look somewhat normal, take my medicine, put on a mask, throw on my casual outfit, which is usually in the back of my closet since I don't often get the chance to explore. Its a pair of shorts with a t-shirt and a green jacket, the jacket i wear all of the time because it is extremely comfortable, similar to a blanket, and if I ever want to just..lay down, I can fold it up into a pillow fashion.

Somewhere special...I, Don't tend to go anywhere special really, I've gone to the ocean one time, but nothing other then that one instance..I guess if I was truly given the opportunity to go somewhere fancy, where looks actually matter, I would probably put my hair up in a ponytail or bun, and maybe wear a three piece suit?

I've been told I would look lovely in a dress, but.I don't particularly like dresses, I've worn them before and they just felt, too insecure, it was like I had to walk on glass trying to figure it out without looking like a fool. A suit would well..suit me much better I think, maybe black with some small red highlights? I like red, and green, maybe green highlights then..but those don't tend to go together very well...

I bet my friend would know, once I find her I will have to ask them.

My next birthday? I will most likely just celebrate it with my close family, which is just my father, he tends to make us some hand made curry, its always super delicious, If..If my friend is somehow back in time for my birthday, I hope she can make it, It would be awesome to visit the ocean again, since I've only done that once, and If she is around we can go visit again.

Though...maybe my father will take me, to see the ocean, the beautiful waves, I would give anything to see that once more, just once...

My greatest regret..hmm, It would likely be, not pushing harder for my father to allow me to explore the world more, he is super protective, extraordinarily so, offering to homeschool me and everything. I wish I could explore the world more, maybe I would be able to if I had taken more risks, despite my illnesses, maybe if i had just explored more. Though, regrets help shape people into who they are, so maybe I wouldn't even be standing here answering this, If I had decided to take those risks, to explore.

My other biggest regret was not hanging out with my friend more often. We were extremely close but I was often sick and couldn't accompany her on the many things she did around japan. But..If I wasn't sick so often, I would have come with her more, maybe we could have even tried other things, like batting cages, or a expensive buffet, or even a trip on a yacht!

My gifts are both inherent and skills granted to me by the neo-genis system for playing by its rules...which it will regret allowing me to do so. Once I figure out how to surpass the system and find my way into its depths, It will know no greater pain as I tear apart its code line by line, searching for my friend, my one and only friend I've had. 

The inherent gifts tend to come from my ability to hack and other innate traits that are a part of me, such as being a big nerd all of the time. Though of course neo-genis does tend to help with the actualization of these abilities.

The non-inherent gifts though, those are entirely generated by neo-genis, its impressive really, its almost as if it is capable of reading my thoughts and working it through a mesh to deliver me a ability that is perfect for who I am as a person.